I Did It Again
Would you like to know what thing I am really, really, awesome at? Totally fucking things up in my life. My wife. Well, I talked to someone I was to have NO contact with. An ex of mine from a long, long time ago. (It happened also to be in a galaxy far, far, away). I unblocked her from my email, and emailed everyone (including her) the kids Xmas card pics. She sent me hers as well. Well, a few days ago she sent me a link to a house her and her husband are buying. I saved the link in my favorites list, and the house is really nice, they must be doing really well, I thought “good for them” (not in a sarcastic way). Well, she saw the link, and saw the house, and when we were watching the kids, I said something about the house we just moved from last year STILL up for sale. And she must have remembered the link or something because that’s when she brought it up “Why did you save a link to some house in Germantown?" (in Ohio). I told her someone sent it to me. As soon as I said that, she was obviously pissed immediately because she is not stupid. She said “Like who?” And I told her, and she said something like about how she (the ex) was supposed to be blocked on my email. And I said she was. And, she is super pissed, I tried to explain it, I told her why I unblocked her, and she said why did I have any contact with her, and I then realized I really fucked up big time. This has happened a few times. Starting with the 2003 incident. So, I think she is leaving me now. She said she might as well get used to doing things by herself. I know I fucked up. I told her it was completely innocent, but that is not the point that she cares about. She only cares that I had any contact. So, I guess this is it. There is nothing I can do to make this better, no way to fix this fuckup. There is something seriously wrong. I don’t know, well, anything at all. Other than she is leaving me. And it was completely my fault.